With nothing to go to.
Yes, part of me was doing a Rachel in Friends when she needed “The Fear” to leave the Coffee House and the other half of me was following my internal compass directing to the exit signs.
First and foremost, I love all the people I worked with and the Job I was in was something I enjoyed very much for 7 years, but over the last year I entirely lost the energy for it. I was feeling tired at work, no longer challenged, lacking direction and purpose.
The time would never have been right and I think I talked myself into staying for a good year or so, but I ran out of ways to encourage myself to stay.
I was listening to the Rise Podcast recently with Rachel Hollis and she was interviewing Ken Coleman and he talked about the 5 most common reasons for burnout/buildup in the workplace and they were:
- No Passion for the job – so a job you are good at, but you don’t love it.
- A toxic environment – whether thats a bad leader or culture or gossip in the workplace.
- Overwhelm – where you are valuable and therefore you are put upon time after time and constantly trying not to drown.
- Underappreciated – Never given feedback or encouragement. The number 1 thing that employees look for in a role is reward and recognition over pay.
- Bordem – this is common in high achievers.
This really resonated with me. I no longer felt like I was growing in the role.
It was a stable job with good future prospects but how good can those prospects be if my heart isn’t in it?
Some friends or aquientences have said I am brave for leaving, but I don’t see it as that. I have 8 years worth of experience and that doesn’t go the day I walk out the door, it stays with me and it is something I can return to at any moment. It is a calculated risk.
I promised myself in my last blog that I would do things that made me happy and so leaving my job was one of them.
For years people say they are unhappy but stay at a job or in an unhealthy relationship because they don’t know any different. It is a long life and I do not want to get to the end of my days and think “oh I wish I had done that job instead.”
In Bonnie Wares book The Top Five Regrets of the Dying, the number 1 regret from all the terminally ill people she cared for and spoke with was “I wish I had lived life on my own terms and did less of what others expected of me.” This hit me like a tonne of bricks, because how many of us are doing things because someone expects it from us or we believe society expects it from us.
Like Carrie says in sex and the city, we can write our own rules.
So now I am helping my little girl into school and have started a new college course. Over the coming months I am going to try out a few new job roles and get involved on some projects that may inspire me or bring new energy to the table.
It’s a whole new chapter, one that will have ups and downs but I am excited for whatever comes next.